On the morning Eleanor Bellamy came to finalize the flowers for her own wedding, she found her sister wearing the ring that had once been hers—and everyone in the room had been hiding the betrayal for months. Her father’s solution to the humiliation was to send her away to marry a stranger, a duke in Wales. No one asked whether she consented. In that family, Eleanor’s feelings had never mattered enough to require permission.
PART 1
The fire had been built up too high.
That was the first thing Eleanor Bellamy noticed, and afterwards she would find it strange that this was the thing her mind chose to hold. Her father grumbled about the price of coal the way other men grumbled about the weather. But the drawing-room fire that morning was roaring like a thing at a fair, and every person in the room was already seated.
Every person except her.
On the ninth of October, in the year 1814, Eleanor Bellamy walked into her father’s drawing room with a list in her hand. She had come down to settle the church flowers. There was a question about seating the March Haven aunts. There was a note to order more candles, because the vestry was dark in November.
Her father stood at the mantel with his hands behind his back. Her stepmother sat very upright on the yellow sofa, work basket untouched in her lap. Frederick Danvers — Viscount Martin, heir to the Earl of March Haven, and Eleanor’s affianced husband — sat by the window with his hat in his hands, the way a man holds a hat when he has come to deliver news of a death.
And Cecily sat beside him.
Cecily, who was twenty-two, and lovely in the way that made strangers stop in the middle of their sentences. Cecily, whose hair took a curl without being asked. Cecily, who at nine had wept because she wanted Eleanor’s blue sash, and had been given it, and had never worn it once.
Cecily’s left hand rested on the arm of her chair, palm down, fingers spread, in the manner of a woman who has been sitting a very long time in a room where she wishes something to be noticed.
On the third finger was a garnet ring in an old-fashioned setting. Small. Dark. Unfashionable.
It was the only piece of jewellery Frederick Danvers had ever given anybody.
Eleanor stopped just inside the door.
“Sit down,” said her father.
“I have brought the flowers.”
“There has been a change of arrangement.”
“A change of arrangement.”
She did not sit down. She looked at her sister’s hand, and then at Frederick. Frederick looked at the crown of his own hat.
And she understood a great many things at once — the way one understands a room after the candle is lit. Not gradually. All at once, and permanently.
The teapot was cold. They had been in this room above an hour. Her stepmother always overfed the fire when she was nervous.
And nobody looked surprised.
“How long,” said Eleanor.
“Eleanor—”
“It is not a complicated question, Papa. How long?”
Cecily made a small sound. It was a sound Eleanor had heard perhaps four hundred times, and it had always worked.
Eleanor discovered, with distant scientific interest, that it did not work now.
“Since the summer,” Frederick said.
He said it to his hat.
“Since June. Since you came for a fortnight and stayed eight weeks. Since I sat up three nights with the housekeeper making your rooms comfortable, because you had said the east wing was too cold. Since I moved Cecily out of the room next to yours, because I thought her voice did something she had not given it permission to do.”
She stopped. The fire cracked and settled.
“Since June.”
“It was not planned,” said Cecily.
“Nobody planned it, Ellie. It simply happened.”
“Things do not simply happen for eight weeks,” said Eleanor. “That is called continuing.”
Her father cleared his throat.
Sir Matthew Bellamy was not a cruel man. It is important that this be understood, because if he had been cruel it would have been easier for everybody, and for Eleanor most of all. He was a man who believed in solutions. He had inherited a diminished estate and a great many obligations, and he had spent thirty years arranging pieces so that the whole did not fall over. And he had come to think of his daughters as pieces, because that was the only way he knew how to think of anything.
“Lord Martin has spoken to me,” he said. “Honourably. And to my face, which is more than most men in his position would trouble to do. He and Cecily have an attachment. A deep attachment. These things are not governed by convenience.”
“They are governed by contracts,” said Eleanor. “I have read mine. I copied out the fair version myself, because Mr. Yardley’s clerk had influenza.”
“The settlement can be redrawn.”
“Yes,” said Eleanor. “I imagine it can.”
And she looked at the ring again.
That was the thing. Not the man.
Even then, standing in the overheated room with the paper of flowers going soft in her hand, she understood — with a clarity that shamed her a little — that she was not going to miss Frederick Danvers very much. She had been fond of him. She had been prepared to build a decent, orderly, affectionate life with him, the way one is prepared to build a wall out of the stones that are actually in the field.
But the ring had been given to her once, in a garden. And it was the only object in twenty-eight years that had come to her without a task attached.
Her sister had put it on before Eleanor was in the room.
“Cecily,” she said. “Take that off.”
Cecily’s eyes filled instantly.
“Ellie, you may have him. It appears that has already been settled without me, and I do not propose to stand here and beg. But you will take that off, because it was given to me, and you have not been given it. You have only put it on.”
The silence that followed was the loudest thing in the house.
Cecily looked at her father. Cecily looked at Frederick. When neither of them came, she pulled the garnet ring off and set it on the tea table.
It made a small, ordinary, domestic click against the wood.
“There,” she said, wounded. “I hope that has made you feel better.”
“It has not,” said Eleanor. “But it was still mine.”
She left it lying where it was.
She would think about that afterwards many times and never entirely explain it to herself, except that she had discovered in that moment that she did not want anything back. She wanted something that had never belonged to anybody else at all.
She went out and closed the door behind her with great care, because she had been raised not to slam doors, and even her rage had been trained.
The passage was cold. It smelled of oil and old dogs. Nobody came into it in October.
Behind her, the drawing-room door opened.
“Eleanor,” said Frederick Danvers. “Wait. Please.”
